its been a long time since my last post. why? cos my com was down. alot of shit has happened during this period of disappearance. as you can see, my blog is some original old school blogspot background. ugly! something went wrong and i didnt know how to correct it, so what the hell just use this as a temporary. i'll do up a new one when im free. im no longer in nee soon now, im officially an armour engineer, currently in sungei gedong. the life here is much better. the instructors here really teach, instead of instilling fear or doing some illogical stuff back in nee soon. everything is logical and humane here, and i show more interest in learning and absorbing. the stuff i learn here is much more interesting. its all about the machines, the mechanised stuff. the best part is i get to drive a tank. its darn cool, i dont get to do all this in field engineers. im glad, and i feel dirt lucky to be here haa. got a nights out today cos i wont get to book out till good friday. gotta go back to field engineers for ex musang, sian sian sian..

surprise surprise, a nights out yesterday was very unlikely. nights out again today! super unlikely but it happened. i wonder what they are up to, is it some kind of mind game? or is it really a bonus to us? god knows. i'm so looking forward to the weekend, cos it's gonna be 4 days long, monday and tuesday are 2 days of blocked leave. i think it's to make up for the burned weekends to come. alright time for me to prepare, gotta leave soon.

back again, was back on friday but kinda lazy to blog in. short but rough week. been through something i've never been through. had mid course cohesion, fun but tiring. ren ri yesterday, had yu sheng. nice, especially the yu sheng. i was sleeping the whole of yesterday. my legs felt like jelly, cos of all the running. it still feels like jelly now. i watched pearl harbour on tv last night, it's enriching, though i watched it before. i watched it in a different angle. it wasn't the dramatic effects, it wasn't the zero fighters in action, it wasn't the love triangle. what really struck me was the suffering, the bodies, the screaming, the fall of what's known to be a giant with power and might. feb 15th 1942, the japanese thought us a lesson, not how cruel or cunning the japanese were, but not to rely on someone else. we relied on the british, but they walked out on us. singapore can never fall again, if we fall again, everything goes back to square one, what we have achieved today is cos of our total defence. it's why i'm in green. serving the nation, going through hardship, it's something to be proud of. not for myself, but for my family and the country. alright this is turning into a history lesson, i shall stop here.

well, it's been a good 5 days of cny. i ate, ate and ate. went visiting, wore new clothes, i really enjoyed myself. but the effects of harsh reality comes into play today, all good things come to an end. by right it should not end so soon, but it has for me. i've got to book in later tonight. things are gonna get so much tougher now. i haven't been exercising for the past few days, simply got no time. gotta do visiting since day 1 of cny. my physical fitness must have dropped alot. much sorrow i feel, to leave home again, such bitterness a large part of life. what troubles me ain't that much the thought of leaving home, what lies beneath is much emotions that stir up a great deal of remorse, regret..only one will understand for i only shown my true self once for that one time.

well i actually booked out yesterday mroning, not on friday. i was kinda busy so i didn't blog in yesterday. busy with spring cleaning and stuff. gotta get things done before cny. i haven't even got my new year clothes, guess i gotta do it the next weekend, last minute shopping. not only that, still got homework that needs to be done, yeah homework, even the army gives us homework. the coming weeks are gonna be hard, especially after cny, it's damn packed. all the exercises are gonna come in, it'll be exercises and more exercises. and not to mention, more weekends are gonna be burned. life is tough, very very tough.

what a time to blog. cos i just booked out on the stroke of midnight. it's been a tough and tiring week, my limbs feel like jelly. it's amazing how i managed to survive the week. i've got so many things i haven't done yet, no time!! i gotta book in on saturday 2300hrs, guard duty on sunday. i wanna get my new year clothes, but haven't got the time to do it, i think i gotta wait till next week. i wanna pack my room, my mum has been nagging, once again, no time. need to squeeze out time else i won't be able to pack before new year. i need a good rest! but that's gotta wait till new year. sheesh, my eyes are shutting, nighty..

got my new phone! looks nice and classy. oh well, too bad i gotta book in early, no time to explore more of my phone. i'm so looking forward to chinese new year, the food, the gatherings, and most importantly the time to rest and enjoy. i'm planning on buying a new com next month, but i doubt i've got the money to do so. got too many commitments, if mum is broke, she'll look for me, then i'll go broke too. but well, what can i do. if i don't even help, who's gonna do so. as long as the family can function well enough, i'd do anything. it's the least i can do. enough talking here, time for me to go back to the real world and fight the nemeses.

it's good to be back, mentally and physically drained week. i can't think and work proeperly now. sunday alone was a killer, a series of 1min ins and outs, not the sunday i expected. monday was full of practical lessons, hot day. tusday, IPPT test, got gold, and the gold comes with a bonus 200 bucks! a pat on the shoulder for me. wednesday and htursday, superbly shagged, considered my first engineer outfield exercise. landmind field camp, no sleep, enitire day of digging holes to place mines. area of ops, bigger than a football field. on thursday itself, we did the landmine cluster, the ground, stoney! imagine the sparks i see everytime i whack the changkol into the ground. darn hard to dig. the moment we went back to camp, after finishing settling all the stores, i knocked out on my bed. slept for around 5hrs or so and here comes the next day. today, lectures in the morning, i was practically sleeping, or dozing off la. afternoon, practical test, still sian, but by evening, load stores for monday's live firing. super high mood, why? cos the faster we finish loading the stores, the faster we get to book out. fair enough, we got to book out after the stores were loaded up. that's the tough week i've been through, and more to come. but due to the training i can confidently say i've gotten to be much more fitter than i used to be. cos of all the training and push up regimes and stuff. and my endurance level, higher, much higher than before. but still, i'm only human, still trying to cope with the life in ETI. give me strength!

here i am again, i've been having to book in early ever since i'm in nee soon, don't ask me why, ask the person who planned the schedule. i'm still tired, haven't recovered from fatigue, i'm gonna need a long long rest. home is illusionised to be paradise, and camp to be boulevard of suffering. life is monotonous, pre-planned and we're fingered around like puppets. i guess they just like to see us running around like a bunch of chickens with their heads cut off. life's been tough, but it has still been possible. some optimism in pessimism. well well, time to stop all my squabbling and book in. till i'm back..

i've been wanting to update since friday night, but i haven't been able to login. never mind that, gotta book in later. gonna make a trip down to beach road to get some stuff, seems like i've been going to beach road for every book out. just to summarise, the real training has started in ETI (Engineering Training Institute). the amount of sleep we get, max 4-5hrs/day. so it gets really tiring. very easy to get extras, guard duties etc.. there really is no time, time is always the enemy, fighting against time. and booking out means alot more to us now. right now i'm just looking forward to chinese new year, i need a break. was hoping i could meet the guys for a meal or something, but it seems like everyone is busy, so well, i watched prison break at home. it's damn nice, wonder if i can break out of camp and not get AWOL. i'm hungry now, gonna get some food, blog in again.

it's the time of the week again, book in day. i'm gonna move off very soon. well the weekend has been peaceful, got all the time to myself, well cos my buddies are busy so i don't have to entertain them. i had a good rest, but it's never enough. every week, i feel the fatigue and it seems like it never goes off. the following months to come, it's gonna be tough, bite it through till may and everything's gonna taste sweet once again. i've been thinking bout my future, the thing about ns is u don't have to worry about it, rather, it's what happens after ns that's worrying. what am i gonna do after my ns? work? study? sign on? to be honest, i haven't got the answer yet, but i'm on the right track, i'm just stuck at a junction, which path to take? a step at a time. time for me to go, till next week..

booked out last night, nearly couldn't cos we couldn't meet the timing. the whole of yesterday was busy, work work and more work. quite a number of guys are going over to chemical, bomb disposal and bridging. me? staying at ETI to be a field engineer. but i hope i'll be able to be an amour engineer though, anyway the armour engineers aren't gonna be posted out so soon, so i still have a chance. finally, i had a good rest last night. haven't been able to get a nice good rest since i touched down. brunei was taxing, plus the booking in and yesterday and stuff, fatigue is catching up with me. well, i can't compare. at the end of the day, it all makes it more worthwhile to be standing on the parade square. gotta go to beach road to get some stuff later, maybe get royston along, then can give him a lift to the bike shop too. alright time to goooo..

the prodigal son returns! as u can see, i changed the outlook of my blog, there are still some stuff i haven't done yet cos i've got no time. gotta book in soon. alright, the trip to brunei was a tough 11 days. i'm lazy to type out what i've been through cos there's just too much. i can only say it was a very good experience but i wouldn't want to go through it again. alot has happened while i was away, my bro is broke after he met with the unfortunate accident. he might not win the case and if that happens, he's gonna be fined and he will get demerit points. let's hope things will turn out fine. the fridge broke down, but it's fixed now (so i can have cold drinks). rodney is wearing long pants to school now, cos he's in the upper sec, kinda funny to see him in long pants haha. that's about it i guess, it's been raining the whole day and i've gotta book in while all other arms are having their blocked leave, wonder when i can book out, hopefully tomorrow night. gotta go, byeee..

this will be the last time i will be blogging in before i head off to the airport. i actually wanted to change my blogskin, but i haven't found one that catches my eye. so i'll keep it this way for now. i'll only be back on the morning of 11th, and i'll be booking in on that day itself at night. so i won't be online for quite some time, cos i dunno when i'll book out. i heard we might not even get to book out, hopefully i'm wrong. duty calls on the first day of this new year, i gotta go, take care and be well my family and friends, i'll miss u people and i'll be missing u..

it's a new year, a new chapter. so what do i expect from this year? hmm i suppose it would be commissioning on the 9th of june, for everyone around me to be happy, and also most important of all, hfklasjdhfksafhksahsakhkajhoiwojcloiujnf;owaiujvfjeofjoie (classified). try guessing. i've really got nothing much to say, cos i'll be flying to brunei later at night, feeling kinda sad. the past year hasn't been that colourful for me. i dunno, maybe i just lived my life the wrong way ever since i enrolled into poly. huge mistake to make at this point of my life, but well hopefully i can rectify things this year. i wouldn't say alot has happened to me the past year, but certainly there are highlights that really changed me, very much to a better person. hopefully the year ahead is a much better one. gotta go, maybe i'll blog in later before i flyyyyy, as for now, byeeeee