well, it's been a good 5 days of cny. i ate, ate and ate. went visiting, wore new clothes, i really enjoyed myself. but the effects of harsh reality comes into play today, all good things come to an end. by right it should not end so soon, but it has for me. i've got to book in later tonight. things are gonna get so much tougher now. i haven't been exercising for the past few days, simply got no time. gotta do visiting since day 1 of cny. my physical fitness must have dropped alot. much sorrow i feel, to leave home again, such bitterness a large part of life. what troubles me ain't that much the thought of leaving home, what lies beneath is much emotions that stir up a great deal of remorse, regret..only one will understand for i only shown my true self once for that one time.