its been a long time since my last post. why? cos my com was down. alot of shit has happened during this period of disappearance. as you can see, my blog is some original old school blogspot background. ugly! something went wrong and i didnt know how to correct it, so what the hell just use this as a temporary. i'll do up a new one when im free. im no longer in nee soon now, im officially an armour engineer, currently in sungei gedong. the life here is much better. the instructors here really teach, instead of instilling fear or doing some illogical stuff back in nee soon. everything is logical and humane here, and i show more interest in learning and absorbing. the stuff i learn here is much more interesting. its all about the machines, the mechanised stuff. the best part is i get to drive a tank. its darn cool, i dont get to do all this in field engineers. im glad, and i feel dirt lucky to be here haa. got a nights out today cos i wont get to book out till good friday. gotta go back to field engineers for ex musang, sian sian sian..

surprise surprise, a nights out yesterday was very unlikely. nights out again today! super unlikely but it happened. i wonder what they are up to, is it some kind of mind game? or is it really a bonus to us? god knows. i'm so looking forward to the weekend, cos it's gonna be 4 days long, monday and tuesday are 2 days of blocked leave. i think it's to make up for the burned weekends to come. alright time for me to prepare, gotta leave soon.

back again, was back on friday but kinda lazy to blog in. short but rough week. been through something i've never been through. had mid course cohesion, fun but tiring. ren ri yesterday, had yu sheng. nice, especially the yu sheng. i was sleeping the whole of yesterday. my legs felt like jelly, cos of all the running. it still feels like jelly now. i watched pearl harbour on tv last night, it's enriching, though i watched it before. i watched it in a different angle. it wasn't the dramatic effects, it wasn't the zero fighters in action, it wasn't the love triangle. what really struck me was the suffering, the bodies, the screaming, the fall of what's known to be a giant with power and might. feb 15th 1942, the japanese thought us a lesson, not how cruel or cunning the japanese were, but not to rely on someone else. we relied on the british, but they walked out on us. singapore can never fall again, if we fall again, everything goes back to square one, what we have achieved today is cos of our total defence. it's why i'm in green. serving the nation, going through hardship, it's something to be proud of. not for myself, but for my family and the country. alright this is turning into a history lesson, i shall stop here.

well, it's been a good 5 days of cny. i ate, ate and ate. went visiting, wore new clothes, i really enjoyed myself. but the effects of harsh reality comes into play today, all good things come to an end. by right it should not end so soon, but it has for me. i've got to book in later tonight. things are gonna get so much tougher now. i haven't been exercising for the past few days, simply got no time. gotta do visiting since day 1 of cny. my physical fitness must have dropped alot. much sorrow i feel, to leave home again, such bitterness a large part of life. what troubles me ain't that much the thought of leaving home, what lies beneath is much emotions that stir up a great deal of remorse, regret..only one will understand for i only shown my true self once for that one time.

well i actually booked out yesterday mroning, not on friday. i was kinda busy so i didn't blog in yesterday. busy with spring cleaning and stuff. gotta get things done before cny. i haven't even got my new year clothes, guess i gotta do it the next weekend, last minute shopping. not only that, still got homework that needs to be done, yeah homework, even the army gives us homework. the coming weeks are gonna be hard, especially after cny, it's damn packed. all the exercises are gonna come in, it'll be exercises and more exercises. and not to mention, more weekends are gonna be burned. life is tough, very very tough.

what a time to blog. cos i just booked out on the stroke of midnight. it's been a tough and tiring week, my limbs feel like jelly. it's amazing how i managed to survive the week. i've got so many things i haven't done yet, no time!! i gotta book in on saturday 2300hrs, guard duty on sunday. i wanna get my new year clothes, but haven't got the time to do it, i think i gotta wait till next week. i wanna pack my room, my mum has been nagging, once again, no time. need to squeeze out time else i won't be able to pack before new year. i need a good rest! but that's gotta wait till new year. sheesh, my eyes are shutting, nighty..

got my new phone! looks nice and classy. oh well, too bad i gotta book in early, no time to explore more of my phone. i'm so looking forward to chinese new year, the food, the gatherings, and most importantly the time to rest and enjoy. i'm planning on buying a new com next month, but i doubt i've got the money to do so. got too many commitments, if mum is broke, she'll look for me, then i'll go broke too. but well, what can i do. if i don't even help, who's gonna do so. as long as the family can function well enough, i'd do anything. it's the least i can do. enough talking here, time for me to go back to the real world and fight the nemeses.