got my new phone! looks nice and classy. oh well, too bad i gotta book in early, no time to explore more of my phone. i'm so looking forward to chinese new year, the food, the gatherings, and most importantly the time to rest and enjoy. i'm planning on buying a new com next month, but i doubt i've got the money to do so. got too many commitments, if mum is broke, she'll look for me, then i'll go broke too. but well, what can i do. if i don't even help, who's gonna do so. as long as the family can function well enough, i'd do anything. it's the least i can do. enough talking here, time for me to go back to the real world and fight the nemeses.

it's good to be back, mentally and physically drained week. i can't think and work proeperly now. sunday alone was a killer, a series of 1min ins and outs, not the sunday i expected. monday was full of practical lessons, hot day. tusday, IPPT test, got gold, and the gold comes with a bonus 200 bucks! a pat on the shoulder for me. wednesday and htursday, superbly shagged, considered my first engineer outfield exercise. landmind field camp, no sleep, enitire day of digging holes to place mines. area of ops, bigger than a football field. on thursday itself, we did the landmine cluster, the ground, stoney! imagine the sparks i see everytime i whack the changkol into the ground. darn hard to dig. the moment we went back to camp, after finishing settling all the stores, i knocked out on my bed. slept for around 5hrs or so and here comes the next day. today, lectures in the morning, i was practically sleeping, or dozing off la. afternoon, practical test, still sian, but by evening, load stores for monday's live firing. super high mood, why? cos the faster we finish loading the stores, the faster we get to book out. fair enough, we got to book out after the stores were loaded up. that's the tough week i've been through, and more to come. but due to the training i can confidently say i've gotten to be much more fitter than i used to be. cos of all the training and push up regimes and stuff. and my endurance level, higher, much higher than before. but still, i'm only human, still trying to cope with the life in ETI. give me strength!

here i am again, i've been having to book in early ever since i'm in nee soon, don't ask me why, ask the person who planned the schedule. i'm still tired, haven't recovered from fatigue, i'm gonna need a long long rest. home is illusionised to be paradise, and camp to be boulevard of suffering. life is monotonous, pre-planned and we're fingered around like puppets. i guess they just like to see us running around like a bunch of chickens with their heads cut off. life's been tough, but it has still been possible. some optimism in pessimism. well well, time to stop all my squabbling and book in. till i'm back..

i've been wanting to update since friday night, but i haven't been able to login. never mind that, gotta book in later. gonna make a trip down to beach road to get some stuff, seems like i've been going to beach road for every book out. just to summarise, the real training has started in ETI (Engineering Training Institute). the amount of sleep we get, max 4-5hrs/day. so it gets really tiring. very easy to get extras, guard duties etc.. there really is no time, time is always the enemy, fighting against time. and booking out means alot more to us now. right now i'm just looking forward to chinese new year, i need a break. was hoping i could meet the guys for a meal or something, but it seems like everyone is busy, so well, i watched prison break at home. it's damn nice, wonder if i can break out of camp and not get AWOL. i'm hungry now, gonna get some food, blog in again.

it's the time of the week again, book in day. i'm gonna move off very soon. well the weekend has been peaceful, got all the time to myself, well cos my buddies are busy so i don't have to entertain them. i had a good rest, but it's never enough. every week, i feel the fatigue and it seems like it never goes off. the following months to come, it's gonna be tough, bite it through till may and everything's gonna taste sweet once again. i've been thinking bout my future, the thing about ns is u don't have to worry about it, rather, it's what happens after ns that's worrying. what am i gonna do after my ns? work? study? sign on? to be honest, i haven't got the answer yet, but i'm on the right track, i'm just stuck at a junction, which path to take? a step at a time. time for me to go, till next week..

booked out last night, nearly couldn't cos we couldn't meet the timing. the whole of yesterday was busy, work work and more work. quite a number of guys are going over to chemical, bomb disposal and bridging. me? staying at ETI to be a field engineer. but i hope i'll be able to be an amour engineer though, anyway the armour engineers aren't gonna be posted out so soon, so i still have a chance. finally, i had a good rest last night. haven't been able to get a nice good rest since i touched down. brunei was taxing, plus the booking in and yesterday and stuff, fatigue is catching up with me. well, i can't compare. at the end of the day, it all makes it more worthwhile to be standing on the parade square. gotta go to beach road to get some stuff later, maybe get royston along, then can give him a lift to the bike shop too. alright time to goooo..

the prodigal son returns! as u can see, i changed the outlook of my blog, there are still some stuff i haven't done yet cos i've got no time. gotta book in soon. alright, the trip to brunei was a tough 11 days. i'm lazy to type out what i've been through cos there's just too much. i can only say it was a very good experience but i wouldn't want to go through it again. alot has happened while i was away, my bro is broke after he met with the unfortunate accident. he might not win the case and if that happens, he's gonna be fined and he will get demerit points. let's hope things will turn out fine. the fridge broke down, but it's fixed now (so i can have cold drinks). rodney is wearing long pants to school now, cos he's in the upper sec, kinda funny to see him in long pants haha. that's about it i guess, it's been raining the whole day and i've gotta book in while all other arms are having their blocked leave, wonder when i can book out, hopefully tomorrow night. gotta go, byeee..

this will be the last time i will be blogging in before i head off to the airport. i actually wanted to change my blogskin, but i haven't found one that catches my eye. so i'll keep it this way for now. i'll only be back on the morning of 11th, and i'll be booking in on that day itself at night. so i won't be online for quite some time, cos i dunno when i'll book out. i heard we might not even get to book out, hopefully i'm wrong. duty calls on the first day of this new year, i gotta go, take care and be well my family and friends, i'll miss u people and i'll be missing u..

it's a new year, a new chapter. so what do i expect from this year? hmm i suppose it would be commissioning on the 9th of june, for everyone around me to be happy, and also most important of all, hfklasjdhfksafhksahsakhkajhoiwojcloiujnf;owaiujvfjeofjoie (classified). try guessing. i've really got nothing much to say, cos i'll be flying to brunei later at night, feeling kinda sad. the past year hasn't been that colourful for me. i dunno, maybe i just lived my life the wrong way ever since i enrolled into poly. huge mistake to make at this point of my life, but well hopefully i can rectify things this year. i wouldn't say alot has happened to me the past year, but certainly there are highlights that really changed me, very much to a better person. hopefully the year ahead is a much better one. gotta go, maybe i'll blog in later before i flyyyyy, as for now, byeeeee