new environment, new people, welcome to the home of the engineers. the expectations are higher, discipline level is much more higher, standard is higher, everything is much more tougher. so many things to do, so little time. no choice but to get used to it. till the day i'm standing in the safti parade square, i know i've succeeded in upholding the name and pride of the engineers. and darn, i didn't know there's this earthquke in taiwan, cos i haven't read the papers in a week. i lost touch with what's happening outside. a year has passed, welcome to the suck. january to june was school and work, june to present, army. once again xmas felt the same like it did for the past years. yeah, something off my chest but maybe i shouldn't have said it. what's done cannot be undone, everything's weird now. not like it used to be. a new year's arriving, and i'll be flying to brunei. new year's resolution? i never thought about it, cos by the time another year is over, i'd forget bout it. but if there's really anything at all i suppose it's commissioning. gonna change my blog skin soon, somehow i think this blog ain't my style.

it's x'mas eve, what's the big deal? i'm still not into the mood yet. i thought i'd enjoy this year's x'mas but i suppose it's been 4 years already and i'm used to thinking that this is just a normal day. something has been troubling me, it's not the past, i've long forgotten bout it already. i never expected myself to be trapped in a situation like this. it wasn't supposed to be like this, but it ended up like this. i can't help but feel this way and i don't know what to do. make known or keep it to myself? merry merry x'mas, lonely lonely x'mas

i'm back! not that i wasn't back during the weekends, in fact i booked out on friday. but my com crashed and i couldn't use my com. had a great week. mainly social night and passing out from service term. well the social night was not that bad, but it could be better. that's what i thought. peilnig was my date, haha the 1st bad thing to happen is to be late, and it happened. so kinda bad to start with haha. it was an enjoyable night, at least to me. and i hope i was a good date haha that, only she can judge. then next thing will be the passing out from service term. was supposed to go for hte 23km route march, however due to the rain, the route march was cancelled. it has been raining for almost everyday. really nice to sleep, especially when im at home. i'm posted to combat engineers, will be reporting to engineering training institute at nee soon camp on tuesday. and i will be flying to brunei on the 2nd of januray next year, very soon. so it's on to the next phase of attaining the prestigious sword, and this, is the most important phase. may the force be with me..

back from platoon field camp, im tired. 5d4n, what do we do? walk, walk and walk. then we attack, and defend. during defence, dig, dig and dig. then we recover all the shellscrapes and trenches. end of platoon field camp. the end result i got, rashes, blisters, aches and fatigue. the only thing beautiful i've seen during the field camp, is the moon. full round moon, majestic and empowering. it's bright with aura and full of energy, if only i could watch it with someone.
gotta reach wingline at 0700hrs later, cos of regimental duty, duh :-( why do we have to do it? i booked out this afternoon. came home to change and wash up then went out to meet peiling. had ben & jerrys, heavenly haha i forgot the last time i had that. i met the guys later in the night. we went to machperson to have a nice supper. i just finished chatting with dear mum, haa how funny she is. but it's nice chatting with her, or maybe i should just get her to read my blog hahaha finally, it's the festive season once again, x'mas is coming, so is end of service term. but end of service term = start of pro term, another tough phase.

i'm tired, time to sleep.

once again, it's sunday, i used to like sundays but now i hate it cos in moments to come i'm gonna be on the long and lonely journey back to camp. went to granny's place yesterday, nice gathering and before i knew it, it's already past midnight, another staurday gone. met the guys at lor 8 for awhile before heading home. breakfast this morning was good, had very nice kaya loti at killiney road kopitam with the same bunch of friends, the best kaya loti i must say, much better than yakun. not forgetting the very nice kopi-o. it's always nice, to come together with the guys for that one time in the week just to sit down and chit chat. catch up with each other, afterall we've known each other for almost 7 years already. and i'm pretty sure we'll go a long way down the road and talk about what we do now. it is till i'm in the army then i realised all these meeting up for dinner or breakfast of gatherings, it's stuff to cherish. when we talk about the past, how we used to play soccer together, do stupid things in class, we know we had fun. but of cos, there are regrets, but well the past is the past, the future is what we must look forward to, thats the only thing we can change. back to reality, 5d4n field camp, it starts tomorrow. it's gonna be tough, no one to complain to :-( i can't possibly bring my handphone there, i'd probably get a few extras. i'm gonna miss chatting with u every night la haha u know who u are. hopefully when i come back i won't be unrecognisable cos of all the mozzie bites. long week ahead sighhhhh...

back again. i booked out last night, but the connection was slow last night so i decided to blog today instead. long weekend, cos of the fieldcamp next week. the last week was fairly fast, GPMG live firing on monday. deadly weapon, one hell of an experience. defence planning on tuesday and went to mandai for recce on wednesday. thursday we had our 16m route march. and friday mainly used for loading of stores as preparation for fieldcamp. thats about it. during the route march, i was the rear scout. was walking with LT Jon so we chatted throughout. he's a nice guy, he shared his experiences, from personal to army stuff. it reignites the fire buring in me. the burning flame of learning, of wanting to be the best, to be given the sword. but meanwhile, i gotta worry bout the fieldcamp first. well, tough times don't last, tough men do. it's a dark saturday morning, cos it's gonna rain soon. nice weather to sleep, maybe i'll take a short nap :-)